[ I'm gonna show you that I'm just fine and I will not obey your orders without leaking any tears.]

Well, unfortunely, I did leak an iceberg of tears. I don't know why. But, she's really ruining everything. She told me not to be like her but I think that's impossible cos she's raising me like the way she was raised. And she's turning me into her. Sorry to burst your bubbles, but I am never going to let that happen. I have an awesome life thanks to you. But today, you just messed me up in the wrong time. I AM NOT MOVING, WOMAN. I hate it that you never actually gave us a choice for living. I hate it that punishment is right in front of you and you still go for it. I hate that I'm in your command. Sadly, I can't say I hate you cos eventually, I'll turn the wheels and head back for you. You've ruined my primary years, you've ruined my friendship between certain friends because you think they're no good. But guess what, you have no idea who they are and don't you ever judge them for who they're not. Oh ya, I forgot to mention you're not gonna mess my awesome secondary year that I've been looking forward to for years. OVER MY DEAD BODY! Especially Grade 13/Form 2. That's my year. And you're not going to make any un-necessary decision for me. I'm a grown lady. I'm independent enough to not make stupid choices. You just never give me the chance to prove to you. Haven't my stories of going to Curtin amazed you? It sure did to me. To the very own story-teller who told the story! Sure, maybe you'll think. 'Oh, she's still young. It's just her imagination.' Or better. You weren't even listening! Don't worry. I'll be fine. Fine enough to not run away or kill myself. Oh, speaking of run away. So that's why you wanted us to move to KK with dad, isn't it? Pathetic woman. You've got a responsibility to fulfil and you're sitting there getting wasted! Try counting how many mistakes have you made. Oh wait, let me do it. It'll be dawn if you counted. UNCOUNTABLE. I can't see how brother can stand you. I can't wait till you leave.

Yes. I hope she reads it. I'm the most terrible person in the family but I can't take it. I understand she's working her ass off at work just to keep us living but you made the choice and this is the prize you get. Ever heard of karma? Anyway, back to my awesome life. Later's Bran will be having a party although his birthday is this Friday. Sheryl couldn't come cos she's going Brunei. Pity. I broke someone's heart last night and I don't know if he's feeling alright. Hope he is. I feel bad enough that I have to shout out all my miserability of someone I love dearly in public! I don't even know if the word 'miserability' exist! F*ck this sh*t up!

I'm fine.


For now.