Friday, 12/12/2008, 2227.

Today's Mr. simon's funeral. Goodbye old fella. I tied the red ribbon on my room's door knob though. Rest in peace. It's 2227 and I'm suppose to be asleep but then something kept me wide awake. I was reading Vampire Diaries : The Struggle, Chapter 13 right. And this verse/passage made me... feel.. so emotional. I realised I needed what the verse was saying so much. I missed it. I wanna be able to feel it again. Except, of course, for real this time.

-"I love you," he said softly. At first she, in her pleasant haze, simply accepted the words. Then, with a chill of sweetness, she realised what he'd said. He loved her. She'd known it all along, but he had never said it before.-

This is just one of 'em. There's another. Check it out.

-"Elena, are you sure this is what you want? It won't be easy living with me. I'll always be different from you, no matter how I try, If you ever want to change your mind..."
"As long as you love me. I'll never change my mind."-

Gosh isn't it fan-ta-bo-lous? I'm thirstying for that love but, of course, everyone knows it's a fantasy. Well, to me it is. Dream on, Emster. Even if you do have that 'love', you'll spoil it one day. Get over it. Hey, read my lips babe, D-E-S-P-O. Back off, imaginary friend. I know what to do. Chill 'eyed? Yea, I f*cking worte this on a paper while it's in my head. I can not let this slip out of my skull. Crutial. I think I should get a diary. Hmmm.

Yea, now I'm sitting by my bedside table writing this crap with my super small ugleh hand writing with a f*cked-up pen on an A4 foldscape paper. I don't even know how to spell that! I feel so pathetic. Punch me? Jus because I miss the feeling I'm desperately writing it down on a paper. HAH! Out of ALL the things to do. Seriously Emster. Get a life. I feel like scribbling this up. But.. I.. can't. I just...

P.s. continue next post. xDD! pics are there too!