And their pillow has a face.

Our 'friendship hang-on-phone-thingos'! :D

I just realise. I woke up feeling depress again. Because of you. Again. You blamed me for ruining things? Excuse me, Mr. I said goodbye first and I'm blaming the chic. But as your name said. You said goodbye. Leave me alone. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you so fking much! I need my life back. I need to stop thinking that it's my fault. I need to have fun once more. With all my babes. I don't need a guy to make me feel happy and thinking, "gosh. there is someone out there who cares about me" cos guess what. People do care. Stay out and never come back.

You're poisoning my brain!

P.S. this post is just for me to release anger gas. Don't bother reading.

A day to remember. OMG! I love yesterday! LOVE IT! Fourth day of CNY, I followed Jac & Arvin go visiting. And Joan & Stef came too. We went to George's house then Wei Jiet's. It was so so very fun there! And hot. Haha. Delicious babeh. Then we went to SOHO for dinner. The pizza was o-so-yummy. Took a pic with Ah Yang. Wanted one with Ah Hong but didn't. Pity. Just waiting for Stef to send me the pics. And some other pics from Joan too. After SOHO we were suppose to go to Arvin's house? But if I go, no transport back. So yea. Pity. AGAIN! Cos I can't get more that 'delicious babeh' again. T.T And now, my mum's all, "faster go dust your bed! Sweep the floor! LALALALA!" OMG. I WANNA GO OUT! I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE FROM THIS!!! Me & chels are chatting now. Planning when to party. Yea babeh! Choi la this Jamie. Say what, Thursday or Friday go out. Yesterday go out pula. -.-

I love staying in Miri for CNY. LOVE IT!

P.S. Pictures will be uploading after Stef and Joan sends them to me.
P.S.S. PARTY ALL DAY BABEH!

That's right! Yesterday was first day of CNY and man! Did I get some big bucks. Haha. Note to self : Never EVER go to Mariott even for tea! It's so terrible there. Like, come on man. Whose mango smoothies are sweet SOUR?! Gosh. And. My bro ordered this spaghetti? And all you can taste is olive oil. I'm not even sure if it's olive oil! It's just oil and pasta, that's it. We went there cos my uncle wanted to watch the lion dance. Speaking of lion dance, when I came home for lunch, mum said that the lion dance from I don't know where came! D: Why? I didn't know you were interested. How long have you known me, imaginary friend? Err, not long? -.- Right. Anyway, I go for the boys ok? lol. RRRIIIGGGHHHTTT. Yea, it's been ages since I put what imaginary friend says in here. :)

So, we went to MENG CHUAN'S house and it was ok. I think I got 10 bucks. Then went next door which was my aunty's good friends place? Got 10 too I think. Then another of my aunty's good friend was there and she gave us me, 40 babeh! While my bro got 30 and Jamie & kids got 10. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Victory alright. Victory. Jamie was like, DD: That's unfair! There must be a mistake! HAHA. Then, came home had MEE SSUUUAAA~ Yea. It was really nice. Of course la, the mee came from Sibu? -.- uh huh. Anyway, it really has been forever since I stayed for CNY in Miri. Usually I'll go back to Sibu. So, after lunch. Jac called and asked if I wanted to go over to Jo's place. And yes, it's a last minute thing. Then I had to beg mother to let me go. And drive me. HAHA. I was suprised she said ok. Then we stayed for a while and left for Jac's house. I didn't get my ang pao from Jac yet. Anyway, then some of her friends came and we all went visiting again! They're really funny. Later I'm going with them again. :) Till I don't know when. Tee-hee.

Amazingly, I didn't cam whore yesterday. But after lunch Jamie took a pic of me. I haven't got it yet. Today I'll prolly cam whore. Wearing my new dress. :D

I look so pregnant in that dress. It's MEI RU'S. :OOO

That hot looking dress!

Do I look lesbi or what?! D:


Before I say anything further, I would like to thank Sheryl babe, za-bo, moonlight for the comfort she gave me yesterday. She was actually the first, for your information. And Sheryl, you might wonder where the 'moonlight' came from. Well, since I'm sunshine, you're moonlight! :D


So yesterday, I didn't break my fingers cos I didn't go piano cos they're on holiday? And I also didn't want to go. And I didn't sore my feet till they bleed either cos we didn't get to use pointe shoes. -.- And on the way there, I didn't got into an accident. So, practically, I was safe the whole way. Guess the Big Man's up there watching over me. :)


Dad drove me down to the studio. I was, sort of, late cos he wanted to have breakfast before he left for Sibu? So I accompanied him. After dancing, I spend my whole afternoon at Jamie's. I tried on her mum's out 70's dress! It's so hot looking. And tight. *sucks everything in* I took a pic in it. And I also tried some other of Jamie's clothes, helped her pick out some clothes too for CNY.


I got my outfit ready for next friday, SHERYL! Do you? haha. I really can't wait! I'm dying to see him. Right in front of me! Talking and laughing and smiling with me. *drool* And I too, can't wait to see the 'other couple'. HAHA. xP


Tonight, mum said I have to go down and help out at the shop? But I just did my nails? So I don't think I wanna. :\ Gonna go over to Jamie's and make things go boom. Yeeeeaaa. That's right.


Have A Happy Chinese New Year Eve, people! :)

I'm sick of people not noticing me & my feelings. I sounded so off and you didn't realise? You just blaber all you want to me instead of him? Just because I tried to not wanting to be center of attention doesn't mean you should ask. Just because I prevent you two from fighting doesn't mean I don't get hurt from what you said to me. Is there hatred and suffering everywhere I go? Damn straight fucking people. Damn straight.


It's gonna be CNY eve tomorrow and I'm feeling dreadful. I poured like I never did before till I fell asleep and woke up with a headache. Does anyone care? Hell no. Not that I want center attention. Now it's 8.19AM and I can't wait to get out of this so-called home. I can't wait to sore my feet till it bleeds later. I wanna play the piano till my fingers break. I wanna get in an accident on the way there so I won't have to suffer with this anymore. I need his comfort and hugs but he doesn't seem to see when I need it and when I don't. What does he even know about me?


Yes, I'm being pathetically emo now. For once. For real. Because of them. I'll try to cheer up. If there is anyone to see it.

Because of Mr. Tang, I found this guys's/woman's blog! http://www.berthamag.com/index.php?/6---click-here/
http://newyorkerpao.blogspot.com/

LOVE THE PHOTOGRAPHY AND DRAWINGS! I'm gonna go for photography. :DD AND! I'm gonna get someone to draw my door! Like the new yorker's blog! So awesome!

And dom, a friend of mine, said I should have took a pic with the kiddo clowns cos they would be really happy if I did. O well. Sorry guys. I'll be back though. :)) Hope you guys are still around.

In the fitting room. Pretty?! Damn.

Today rained utterly very heavily, yes? At least in Riam area, yea. And today the air con finally worked. But people sweated from Ms. Jill's punishment? So, it pretty much smelled awful. :\ People were squeezing around in canteen and it was terrible! We had to get wet cos of the narrow pathway. Thanks to the new benches and tables drilled to the floor. And guess what! I didn't eat brunch nor lunch! For once. Haha. Only ate my darling starfruit. Hello babeh. *sexy eyes* Be jealous that I love the starfruit and not you. *crunches nose and sticks tongue out*

Ah yes. I got the answer from Samuel. Haha. His parents don't allow him to drive alone. O well, pity pity. I thought of going to the beach with him someday. :) It'll be nice. *pictures the moment*

Hmmm, I just realized that Hitz.Tv only play the already-famous songs. Boring. Like, Hot N Cold - Kathy Perry? It was a top hit ages ago and now it's like, still number one on the chart? for Hitz that is. Come on man.

Did I mentioned I trimmed my hair yesterday? I think I didn't right? Yea, it's so sexy now. Sort of. My back fringe is like, all layer-y now. Spickey. Mm. And the rest is jusst thinner. For CNY. Don't wanna have a bushes as a hat now, do we? x)

I wanna get another spec without lens! At least non-degreed ones. :D Black framed and the size will be pretty big. If I can find one. B) It's gonna be so hot with my RRSS day outfit. Right, Sheryl? :D Yea, I'm going with your idea.

Lar-di-lars!

Girl 1 : You know, it's so hard to just forget your past?
Girl 2 : Tell me about it. Why?
Girl 1 : Nothing. It's just that, how can I 'almost' date every guy in that group? Some people are gonna think I'm some whore or so.
Girl 2 : It's not your fault that you fall for almost the whole group? I think. At least the one you dated, you didn't exactly fell for him.
Girl 1 : -.-

Hmm. nothing interesting happened today. The convo above is just some crap. I'm so tired now. Sleepy. Zzz is calling my name. I want my bed. Or at least the sofa. But I can't sleep unless it's night. My body just wouldn't let me. It's so.. ARGH. STAB ME. PLEASE!

School was utterly dull. Nothing happened as I said before. Except I was so not in the mood to study but end up listening intentively. I don't even know if I got that right. I can't think now. Tomorrow I'll have to get up again and go to school for the stupid idiotic replacement again. And I'm gonna miss my dancing class once more. It's called torture, teachers and higher-ranked people. TORTURE. We're doing some germinating seeds experiment in Science class.

Yesterday, I went to Eexin's blog and she mentioned that she and her class killed a frog? Dissect, I mean. Yea, it's such a pity but COOL. Haha. Pity because it was pregnant. Cool 'cos they got to see the inside of the frog. I wanna dissect a human! Gah, I can't even smile now. -.-

He ain't replying again. Don't tell me he's studying.

NICE FACE MAN! HAHAHAHA.

Close up.

Mic-ma. HAHA. Freak.

[ I found myself sitting on a bar outside church. I was wearing full black with a hat on my lap. Who died? I wondered. I realized, in my chest, I was aching. Really bad. It hurt like a stake being pierced in my heart. I kept my head low and my eyes on the floor. Out of the blue, a shadow over lapped me. I looked up and it was Him. "You okay?", he asked looking as if he cared. I stared at him for a minute. He was actually wearing a suit. And I broke. I was pouring. Leaking. Crying. I had no idea why. He sat beside me while I crashed. We stayed that way for a moment and he suddenly put his arms around me. He was hugging me. I burried my face against his shoulder bone. Sobbing like I never did before. He didn't seem to mind as he just stayed that way. I finally pulled away, apologizing for wetting his suit and offered a change of clothes in the car. When I was about to leave, he grabbed my hand and pulled me back in his chest. "I want to stay this way for a while", gently he placed his hand on the back of my hair. I let him be. The warmth between us was...]

Lar-di-lars! Yea, Emo right? haha. Anyway, I've been studying a lot these few days. Geo especially. -.- Why are you even studying geo when you don't need it in senior class? It's for PMR alright. I'm also planning to have an airbrush tattoo! I asked dad and he, of course, approved. But, mum doesn't. She told me to forget about it! T.T What's that? What the hell is airbrush tattoo? It's a tat that doesn't stay there forever. For couple of days I assume. Most prolly I get code bars. :DD It's small and not so pakia what. Gonna get it secretly I guess. For CNY ba. Yes, I'm still grounded but come on. CNY le. I need to go visiting. So yea.

What have I been doing lately? You don't wanna know. My title says it all. It has been raining quite a lot lately. Now still drizzling again. Oh. And on Thursday was Bao Wen's birthday! Happy 12th Birthday, big boy! When I arrived, didi was all, "LEE CHIINGG! You're hiieee! Gimme a hug!" IS THAT CUTE OR WHAT!? OMMMMGGGG. He's my only lover~ But he's already primary 1. Not as cute as last time. -.-Anyway, today, I got piano. But no ballet since teacher Mei Ling went to KK for some swimming competition. Gonna have lunch at Grand Palace since my brother's friends will be having a farwell party. So yea. Then maybe I'll study my math today. I forgot to bring back my Sej text book so I can't do my homework? But I was thinking, since I'm already into Geo, screw Sej. Haha.

I still hate that new kid in my class. Smelly fat freak show. -.- who thinks he's all cool? I don't think I mentioned him here right? I mean in my blog/previous post. Hmm. Well, I hate him and I ain't gonna say his name. You know, there's this other new kid in class that I said I wanted to be friends with? And I said that on what, Tuesday? and we're still strangers to each other. Practically strangers la. Except that he's my unknown classmate. Teehee.

The kiddos are really good back-up singers! Some dances too! *double thumbs up*

That's right babeh. 100th post. School was funny/siao/boring/awesome/frustrating. Haha. Our form teacher is Mr. Tang. He's alright. He has a blog too. He's in my link. He's really nice. He tells us stuff that's not exactly in topic but it's awesome to know about them. :) Ok, Form 2 now. Puh. Learning Form 4 and 5 math, learning reproduction in Chapter 14. Wth man. But AWESOME! I get to be smater than usual form 2s. Suckers. Anyway, my english teacher's Ms Jill. She's great too. :) I just realized what're CSI people called now. FORENSIC SCIENCE EXPERTS! And I think they rock! AND! also, radio DJs are actually called RADIO SHOW PRODUCERS! :OO Haha. I was all o.o sakai. She also tell us some out of topic stuff which I think is really cool. My geo teacher? Hell no man. I can barely hear her and I wanna pass my geo le. -.- I WAN CIKGU SERIAMMM. T.T Mr. Tang's URL for his blog is really cute. When he wrote it on the board I'm like, O.o WTH?! it has a 'Blek' in it! And another has 'MANGO' in it! My dog! is that :O or what?! Haha. I saw Lester too yesterday. What's with the outfit man? So.. OH! BM! TORTUREEE!! We gotta speak in BM the whole way! If we don't, we gotta pay 20 cents! DDDD:

I think I'm going gwaii zai. *nods* IT'S TERRIBLE ISN'T IT?! when she told me, I'm like, haha! o.o oh wait. ur serious. But. WHY?!?! Get a grip, imaginary friend. I said 'I think' ok. Chill woman. Anyway, I'm gonna do some research on chemical engineering and MAS communication later. Then I need to go read some novel Mr. Till assigned us to do. He's my BM teacher btw. Then prehaps piano? I was suppose to go to tuition today. But mum said no money so next month. Ms Agnes aint teaching anymore! Although Mdm. Karen is ok but Ms. Ages teaches UEC!! T.T Don't goooo. So gonna go do my research now.

Toodles. 100th post babeh. and I wasted it on talking about school. Crappy much. tsk tsk.

Before I start explaining my title...

Back off, bitch. I won't be any better than last year. And I don't wanna cause trouble. I hate you enough. Back it up.

Alright. Back to explaining. So, today. Mum had to make Roasted Lamb to make me stay at home. Cos this morning I wanted to go over to Jamie's to watch cartoon? And mum was all...

Mum : What you gonna do at Yee Yee's(aunty in chinese) place?
Me : err, watch cartoon? *psps*
Mum : o.o you can do that on other saturdays.
Me : but then I have to wait another... *counts* forever!
Mum : you wan lamb or not?
Me : I thought we'll be eating it... not today?
Mum : *pretends to not hear me* if you wan then you better stay at home help me with the vege.
Me : -.- Fine.

So yea. She blackmail me, you know! With LAMB! Curse her. So back to the question. Why are my hands the roughest of all? Cos the lamb was freak ass oily and I.. Yes, I, Emma Lee. WASHED ALL THE FREAKING DISHES. Besides my bro's. I was suprised he washed his own plate. Anyway, then before the lamb thingo, Mei ru. Yes, Mei ru called me under Jamie's order. Asking me if I wanted to go over to make choco cornflakes and I'm like.. Choco/cartoons or lamb?? LAMB. Definitely. Haha. So I said no ty. Pity. But I'll be back. Just you watch me! Th lamb was nice. It would be better medium rare though. :D Yes I prefer my meats medium rare. xD

I finally went to morning mass today. I was a lil sot. -.- But guess what! I was purple-li-cious! haha. Oh yea. I watched the tutorial vid for piano, My immortal by Evanescene. I know how to play the first verse! Bridge.. I got a lil confuse. Same goes to chorus. Pity. Anyway, tomorrow is finally school and I can't wait to rub my lojoi face at that slutty fat ass player bitch! Be song jiu say la. Go talk behind me again. Cb la. Anyway, I don't wanna talk about her HERE. Dirty my blog only.

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE SHERYL-SAN!!! xDD xoxo

I'll be there. For triumph. I will make it. Don't underestimate me, bitch.

First of all, I would like to thank Jamie for the help on my blog. If she didn't go to this certain page and the word in my banner I wouldn't have renovated my blog. Secondly, I would like to thank ABEL! for teaching me how to put pics in my blog banner. Thirdly, Uncle James for the pics. THANK YOU GUYS! Song of the week: Womanizer by Britney Spears. It's my ringtone now. xD

I'm grounded for life? Bummer.

That's right, it's new years' babeh. So on the 31st I went out with the babes. Sheryl, Joan and Ana was suppose to come but can't for some reason I have no idea besides Sheryl's. We went to Citrus for lunch then went to Parkson gia gia then for dinner went to Secret Recipe. We were suppose to go to Alfresco after but some people don't wanna go so yea. I bought vodka though! Went back to Cass' house to drink. Haha. So Arvin came to pick us up at Parkson and we went to Secret Recipe then we went to Servay walk walk then he came again to bring us go Boul with him. And Sheryl, guess who was there. GG man! That's right. It was mr. Hot stuff. Haha. We had a really great time. Except that my mum was all, "Be back before 10!","Cannot sleep over!" and lalala. But I sort of, talked back? And I manage to sleep over. Even before 10 she already text me say it's 11. Please la. You can trick me while I'm sleeping but not when I'm wide awake ok.

Ok, I very sien now so I'll make this short and bring out the pics. I started writing in my diary already. Her name's Sky. At first I wanted to name it Monday? But nah. xD Pics time!

Group pic in Citrus.

Our drinks and Jac's arm. Sexy yeh?

My Mac & cheese and Cass' Baked chicken rice?

Some delay-ed pics from Sibu. Those, are killers.

Last day in Sibu.
Close up.
My funkey munkey. In Citrus.

Toilet pic.Oh yea, I forgot to mention we went to Imperial too.

Others cam whoring too. xD
Our.. err, Friendship necklace? Cat:Stef, Zebra:Cass, Giraffe:Jac, Deer:ME!

Our drinks in Secret Recipe.

Us without Cass in Secret Recipe.