Sunday, March 7, 2010
Baby.. Oh baby.Wrap your arms around me, please? Come back to me. I know you'll come back soon but I really want you now. I know I'm being selfish and I don't know what you're thinking if you do read this but baby, I love you. And those words don't come out easily. Whenever I'm about to online, I get so excited because I know you're gonna be there. But I can't have those butterflies anymore. I want you to shower me with kisses. I want you to handle me with care and gentleness, my love.
I can't be in denial anymore. It's a fact: It's not the same anymore.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Before I go blabering about what I wanted to blaber about, I just wanna say that school has been screwing my head a lil too tight on my neck and eventually, I'll need a break. Okay, I'm not sure if you get it but I do. :D Anyway, so that's why I haven't been blogging. Sorry.Last time, when I ask people, "Why don't you date him?" they'll go all, "cos I'm confused!" and I'll roll my eyes and go, "C'mon! How confuse can you get? You like him, he likes you." But now, boy did I mistreat that word. I'm exactly like that now. *slips role over my neck and jumps* He looks exactly like HIM! And I have no effin clue why am I still attached to this DUDE! But, I don't know. There's 2 main guys, and I don't know whether to let go or pick one. All there is going on between us is eye-to-eye looks.
Let's try another week or so and see how it goes. :)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Live to the fullest
It's almost the end of my hols and I've been to Parkson with my friends once. Interesting. Haha. The rest was with either my mum or my lil cuzzies. So, I went with Jac last Saturday and we came across this exhibition thing, One Life. Honestly speaking, it didn't really touch me cos I don't really know how to react towards HIV/AIDS people? You may go all, O: HOW COULD YOU?! But I'm being honest. I have no reaction towards going green and especially human/animal trafficking. So anyway, I bought a tee which can be considered too small? But they didn't have my size! And I still bought it to support them! xD haha. Well, it's like this, they(volunteers) set up like scenes? Of these victims of HIV. They gave you MP3 players to listen to and it gives instructions and stuff. They had 3 stories of different people. I was a Indian girl, Jothi. Her parents both had HIV and soon after her mum passed away first. So it was her, her youngest sis and youngest bro and her dad. Then eventually, her dad died too after 2 years. Her grandma, uncle and aunt came to take care of them but her uncle and aunt are like, always quarreling cos they had to take care of something that isn't theirs or something like that. So Jothi had to care for her brother and sis too, you know. She had to go to those roads where all those big industrial vehicle pass by? And they honk at her and leers at her. She was afraid, of course but she did it for her siblings anyway. Soon, they found out her lil sis had HIV too and soon fell sick. Her grandma was the one like, watching her 24/7. And of course, her lil bro had HIV too but hasn't start getting sick yet. So, Jothi couldn't bare not knowing whether she had HIV or not. So she went to check-up. Then the MP3 like, told me to walk through the curtain and I'll come to a clinic and I had to wait for my turn. And in reality, there were people(as in people who came to watch and witness this) waiting there. So when it was my turn, I walked to the counter and placed my hand on the counter cos the MP3 told me to? And the lady in the counter 'chopped' as in like, you know when kids do a good deed in school the teacher gives them a 'chop'? Yea, that. And it indicated that Jothi/I was HIV negative. So luckily Jothi survived. But her family didn't.
Sad ain't it? Hmm. They had this Wall Of Hope and Reflection which was really cool. And we could like, take a piece of paper and write what we hope for these people. Jac went in too and she had a different story, of course. Her's was some guy named John(hehs. John.) and he was a HIV positive? So her 'chop' was a positive. Anyway, Lester and Kayii went too. He asked me to cut into this place but I was eating so I couldn't go in. :| O well, but I did went in afterwards. So after my day at Parkson, I went to work and went home and like, used a red marker to darken my 'chopped' mark and cam whored. HAHA. xD The guys who worked at Maxim thought it was a tattoo. WTF. Have you ever seen a RED tattoo? And hello, do you have any idea how old I am? Probably not. *shrugs* It's fading anyway. So I'm gonna post some pics up and I'm gonna have my brunch. I haven't had my breakfast, please.
Toodie!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Hmmm, I'm starting to get excited for Christmas. Just cos I get to wear my lovely outfits. Heh. Besides that, I'm sorta excited that I'm going back to school? Cos I get to meet my friends again and like, be retarded. Haha. But what I'm sooo not looking forward is exams. Right after CNY we'll have our first exam and also, I'll be having my PMR. :X O well, I hope it'll be a good year.Although people around me have been saying it but wow, time really can past. Like, it felt like just yesterday I was still in Primary school and in another 2 more years I'll be a senior in my current school. Dayyyuumm. Yes, I'm very looking forward to be a senior. haha. And maybe, in another 3 years I'll be fulfilling my dream of dancing... Not in Miri! :D That is if my dad would allow. And also, travelling around the world with my friends. I seriously envy my cousin when we bumped into each other in the airport. During my KK trip by the way. He had this big group friends going to places and stuff and they were all laughing and talking in the plane.. *mumbles* O well, I'll have my chance, right?
Anyway, I'm getting hungry. So I'm gonna whip myself something to munch on. Signing out... Now. Toodles!
Monday, December 7, 2009
You know, I just realized I forgot to mention that I lost my contacts too in KK. Haha. So I was practically wearing my specs most of the time. I didn't like it. ):Anyway, I don't really have much to say except that. I'm actually online just because I wanna listen to Yahoo!LauchCast? Haha. I love it, indeedy. But my fav station's having some error so I'm listening to all the 2007 hits. *sticks tongue out in a 'man-this-sucks way* But some songs are alright.
I haven't seen New Moon yet....... ): I wanna watch The Princess & The Frog! :) It looks cute and nice. The song in it by Ne-yo, something about needing you or something. I forgot the song title. It's not bad. Haha. Well duh. It's Ne-yo. Anyway, I think after this I'm gonna go back to Facebook for a bit then slack in front of the TV.
Oh. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRUTHER! *head bang* He hasn't celebrated his birthday in a longggg time. This year was my FIRST year not celebrating mann. haha. O well. It's 12.25P.M now and he's still in bed. I think that's how he wanna celebrate it? Beats me. Anyway, I'll be going back to Sibu on Christmas Day! I'm not sure whether I'm going to the morning mass though. I hope I can. Meaning sleepover! Teehee. :D We'll see.
Signing out.